Reckless, Passionate Love of Jesus Christ in the Eucharist (Consecrated Bread)

      By Monica    Columbus,  Ohio

       I went into the "desert" this summer, discerning many things as well as drawing more closely to God to better hear His voice and promptings.  The following is a treasure trove of precious diamonds and jewels uncovered in The Spiritual Exercises of St Ignatius (Tan Classics, 1914 and 2010) with this section focusing on Jesus Christ in the consecrated Eucharist (holy bread consecrated by a priest) as well as housed in all the tabernacles of the world.  I am mainly quoting from the book, with perhaps a few thoughts and inspirations in brackets.  Look out, it is powerful!
     -- "... in every single city [Jesus in tabernacles - small metal ornate 'houses' like the ark of the covenant, that houses Jesus in consecrated bread] ... so that there shall not be any Christian who may not enjoy converse with Him."  (p. 142)

     -- "They [Apostles, disciples] possessed Our Savior during the days of His mortal life.  ...It appear to be to your advantage .. [now, in the bread].  They possessed Jesus Christ in the state of His infirmity; you possess Him in the state of glory [when visiting Him in the exposed Eucharist at Adoration].  They only possessed Him in intervals, for Jesus frequently retired from the company of men to solitude; you possess Him constantly, [if you think about it, receiving communion every day makes Him physically become part of your body continuously!]...  He does not reside more really in heaven than He resides in our sanctuaries." (143)
     -- "Jesus Christ promises you possessions honorable, unfailing, infinite, eternal... they [those who follow Him whole-heartedly such as his Apostles and disciples] have only been surprised in being rendered happier even beyond their hopes ...  Jesus Christ has the most sacred and incontestable rights over your heart." (p. 131)
     -- [I add this next part, the ending of the St. John of the Cross poem, "Dark Night of the Soul:"
"I remained, lost in oblivion;
My face I reclined on the Beloved.
All ceased and I abandoned myself,
Leaving my cares forgotten among the lilies."

"The Life of Jesus Christ in the Eucharist"

       -- "Consider that our Lord reproduces in His Eucharistic Life all the states of all the virtues of His mortal life. (!!!)
     --  "The tabernacles represent the humble house at Nazareth.  ... a life of retreat, of prayer, of obedience."
     --  "He is in a state of absolute dependence, always submissive to the ministers [priests], equally ready, according to their will, either to remain hidden in the tabernacle, or to present Himself to the adoration of the faithful, or to transport Himself to the houses or to the hospitals, to visit His suffering members."  (143-144)
     -- "He [Jesus] teaches still, no longer by His words, but by His example -- by His poverty, by His humility, by His flight from the world, ..."

     -- "The suffering life of our Savior is perpetuated in the sacrament of the Altar ... the same trials ..., the same sadness of heart ..., the same abandonment ..., the same insults ..., the same torment of His Sacred body, equally crucified by His executioners on Calvary ...  The same examples of patience ..., of detachment ..., of charity ..., in a word, of the same heroic sacrifices." (144)
     -- "... the Eucharist ... is an extension of the mystery of the Incarnation, ... but MUCH MORE WONDERFUL is the union He contracts with us in the Eucharist.  In the Incarnation, He takes a nature like ours; He enters into our family, He makes Himself one of us -- our brother.  In the Eucharist He goes farther; it is no longer to a nature like ours He unites Himself, He unites Himself to each one in particular; it is no longer to our family He allies Himself, it is to our person."
     -- "How does He unite Himself to us in the Eucharist?  By the nearest and most intimate union.  The Fathers (of the Church) compare it to the union of two waxes melted into a mix together (St. Cyril of Alexandria). Our Lord compares it to that which exists between His Father and Himself:
'This is the bread that came down from Heaven ... whoever eats this bread will live forever..."  "Except you eat the flesh of the Son of man, you shall not have life within you. (John 6:52:54)."

     -- "What does He do to unite Himself to us?  He multiplies miracles and reverses all laws of nature.  He exposes Himself to all insults....  He gives all He has and all His is -- His body, His soul, His divinity, and with this every grace.  He is generous even to exhaustion ... He gives Himself thus entirely, not once only, but every day, if we wish.  Every fresh communion is a new gift that Jesus Christ makes of Himself to us."
     -- "Represent to yourself heaven opening at the voice of the priest and our Lord descending upon the altar amid choirs of angels."
     -- "Beg a lively faith in the mystery of the Eucharist and a tender love for Jesus Christ present in the tabernacle." (146)
     -- "Contemplate our Savior present in the tabernacle and impatient to give Himself to you."  "Represent to yourself [imagine] the glory of His adorable humanity; ... the majesty ...; the sweetness of His countenance ..., the dazzling light that flashes from His wounds...; the flames that escape from His heart ...   What goodness this divine Savior casts on you those eyes, one look from which converted sinners ..." (146).

      -- "Say to Him [Jesus] with the prophet: 'Lord cast your eyes upon me, and have pity on me ...  Look upon me and have mercy on me.'  'Make the light of Your countenance to shine on Your servant...; save me in Your mercy' (ps 31:16)."
     --  "Listen to the incarnate Savior who speaks to you.  And what does He say to you?  Words of consolation: 'Blessed are the poor in spirit. Blessed are those who mourn.  Blessed are they that suffer persecution."
     --  "Perhaps words of reproach but of sweet and tender reproach ..." (147).
     --  "... words of counsel and invitation: 'Take up my yoke upon you, and learn from Me, because I am meek and humble of heart, and you will find rest for your souls;  for My yoke is easy and my burden light."
     --  "Words of encouragement: 'I know your tribulation and your poverty, but you are rich ...'
     --  "Words of desire and love: 'Behold I stand at the door and knock ...'  ' My son, give me your heart (Prov. 23:26)"
     -- "  With holy attention, say to Him, 'Speak Lord, for Your servant is listening..."
     --  " ... the sweetness of the virtues He practices in His Eucharistic life -- His patience, His charity, His obedience, His poverty, His humility, His solitude, His prayer ..., Unite yourself to Him as a model to imitate His example; as a victim, to sympathize with His sorrows ..." (147).

St. Ignatius of Loyola

(founder of the Jesuits, 

Pope Francis' order)

     --  "... application of touch ... woman ... touched the hem of his garment ... Madgalene ... embraced His sacred feet and watered them with her tears; ... Thomas who placed his finger in His wounds; St. John, who reposed on His breast, ..."
     --   "Put yourself in their places ... sometimes as a penitent, embracing His sacred feet and asking pardon for your faults;  sometimes as a disciple, whose confidence requires animating and strengthening, then place your finger in His wounds to convince yourself of His love; sometimes as a friend ... to intimate familiarity, and then figure to yourself that Our Lord presses you to His heart."

     --  "Discourse of Our Lord After the Last Supper"
     --  "Represent yourself the disciple Jesus loved [John], reposing on His bosom and drawing from His heart .. understanding ..."
     --  "Ask the grace to partake Him this place of honor during your meditation [lying against His chest reclining comfortably]... [ It was here that Jesus said: "I will come back and take you to Myself so that where I am you may also be" John 14:3]."
     -- "'If any man loves Me, he will keep my word, and my Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our abode with him.' (John 14:23)." (149)

     -- "No servant is greater than His master.  If they persecuted Me, they will also persecute you.' (John 15:20)"
     --  "If I go, I will send the Holy Spirit to you ... He will convince the world of sin, of justice and of judgment.  ... "He will teach you in all truth.'"  "Do not let your hearts be troubled or afraid.' (John 14:27).
      Throughout the entire Exercises of St. Ignatius, the prayer called, "Anima Cristi," is repeated.  I personally did not know this and had been praying this favorite prayer for a few years.  I was ecstatic to see it here, and while it is attributed to St. Ignatius because he prayed it so often, other scholars believe that it was someone before.  Either way, it is powerful.  The sequence of sentences have direct connections with the Eucharist (the consecrated body and blood of Jesus Christ), whose "flesh is real food and blood is real drink," as He boldly proclaimed (John 6:55).

     If you do not believe in the extra power of praying right in the midst of Jesus Christ, exposed in Eucharistic Adoration (when He Himself is put onto an altar outside of the tabernacle), just know that this is how the charismatic renewal in the U.S. began more than 50 years ago.  It was during a retreat at Duquesne  University and the "first" experiences of several Catholics in one night being somewhat "slain in the Spirit" was when they went, one-by-one into the Eucharistic Adoration chapel at Duquesne.  It was that simple.
     The difference is that those with the gift of calling down the Holy Spirit, Ralph Martin among those praying from other places, were calling down the Holy Spirit upon them and the chapel where the retreatants were.  Nothing is as powerful on this earth than sitting with Christ Himself right in front of you, and others, including Mary, interceding for you!

Here is the shorter verssion:

ANIMA CRISTI

Soul of Christ, sanctify me;
Body of Christ, save me;
Blood of Christ, inebriate me;
Water from the side of Christ, wash me;
Passion of Christ, strengthen me;
O good Jesus, hear me;
Within your wounds hide me;
let me never be separated from you;
From the evil one protect me;
At the hour of my death, call me;
And bid me close to you that with your saints,
I may praise you forever and ever.

Amen.

The Spirit is Moving! Fr. Daniel Berrigan, Pacifist, Presente!

       By Monica, The Lamb Catholic Worker, Columbus, Ohio.
       The Holy Spirit is blowing in sweeping mountainous strokes within the Catholic Church and in our world with several amazing and awesome (in the true sense of the word) happenings!
       I applaud the Catholic Times here in Columbus for printing the Catholic News Service release of the life and legacy of the famous 94 yr. old Jesuit priest, Reverend Daniel Berrigan, who, more than anything else in his life, adored his Jesuit priesthood of 54 years.  I spoke with him 9 years ago about both a movie screenplay I had written and the Lamb Catholic Worker - and the gentleness and sweetness of his little holy disposition came through the phone!  He said, "Oh God bless you for what you are trying to do!"

Rev. Richard McSorley, S.J. (Monica's mentor) and Rev. Daniel Berrigan, S.J.

         [The above picture was taken by Monica of Rev. Richard McSorley, S.J. and Rev. Daniel Berrigan, S.J. at the Pacem en Terris award given to Dan at the Georgetown Center for Peace Studies in the early 1980's].
       These were some of the words of his nieces and nephews at his death:  "Dan taught us that every person is a miracle, every person has a story, every person is worthy of respect...  And we are so aware of all he did and all he was and all he created in almost 95 years of life lived with enthusiasm, commitment, seriousness and almost holy humor."  "The 'heavy burden' of peacemaking will continue among many people,' the family added, saying, 'We can all move forward Dan Berrigan's work for humanity.'"

        With Brother Louis, the famous Trappist monk, Thomas Merton, as his mentor, Dan Berrigan engaged in several acts of civil disobedience that landed him in jail and prison for years, even with arthritis in his spine.  It began with his outrage of children and many innocent Vietnamese civilians in huts and villages being burned alive with napalm during the Vietnam War by U.S. soldiers.  He joined others to break into a government office holding draft files of those having been drafted and forced against their choice, to napalm others in Vietnam.  They pulled out draft files to the parking lot  outside, and napalmed them.

 

     The following is part of my very favorite poetic writing of Dan, which was part of the Catonsville 9 statement in their defense of burning the draft files of those forced to kill.  This was at a time when the idea of a priest breaking the law and going against law and order seemed a terrible witness to many. The lawlessness was too much to bear. This was part of their (his) reply:

Our apologies, good friends,
for the fracture of good order,
the burning of paper
instead of children, 
the angering of the orderlies
in the front parlor 
of the charnel house. 
We could not, so help us God,
do otherwise.
For we are sick at heart,
our hearts give us no rest
for thinking of the
Land of Burning Children.
And for thinking of that
other Child, of whom
the poet Luke speaks. 
It is in Him that we put
our trust, and in no other.
     Fr. Berrigan went on to confront the evils of creating, investing in ($ multi-billions), manufacturing, and potentially using, again, weapons of mass destruction, or nuclear weapons. He began the "Plowshares" movement based on the Old Testament quote from Isaiah:
 "And they will beat their swords into plowshares and their spears into pruning hooks.
            Nation will not lift up sword against nation,
            And never again will they learn war."
       On Sept. 9, 1980, Fr. Berrigan and six other demonstrators were arrested after entering the General Electric missile plant in Pennsylvania, and beating on the nose cones (without the weapons inside), of intercontinental ballistic missiles. They then poured blood over classified defense plans there.  I was at the courthouse outside on sentencing day praying with fellow Catholic Workers for them.  It was quite a sacrifice on their parts, and Fr. Berrigan spent years in prison for it, even with painful arthritis of the spine.
        There have been many other Plowshares actions done around the country against not only weapons of mass destruction, but also exposing the direct link of nuclear energy and power plants to weapons of mass destruction.  The "spent" radioactive rods of the core can be converted into weapons grade plutonium and into weapons of mass destruction against entire cities of innocent people.  Even the term of the man-made element on the Periodic Table, Plutonium, had to be named after the god of hell in ancient Greece, Pluto.  This is used in weapons of mass destruction.  To think that it was not part of God's plan of creation, we brought "hell" to earth with our own hands.
       At Hiroshima, Japan, he wrote the following poem.

Shadow on the Rock

At Hiroshima there’s a museum

and outside that museum there’s a rock,

and on that rock there’s a shadow.

That shadow is all that remains

of the human being who stood there

on August 6, 1945

when the nuclear age began.

In the most real sense of the word,

that is the choice before us.

We shall either end war and the nuclear arms race

now in this generation,

or we will become shadows on the rock. 

     

Fr. George Zabelka in the middle with white beard, Dad, right.

      

         Fr. George Zabelka, the military chaplain over Paul Tibbits of Columbus, Ohio who was the main pilot of the "Enola Gay," the plane that dropped the bombs on Hiroshima and Nagasaki, had a milestone conversion of heart to Christian nonviolence (of our early Church history of the first 300 years). At first he was as gung-ho as Paul Tibbits, long after the incineration of so many innocent lives. It was Rev. Emmanuel Charles McCarthy who helped bring about his change of heart.

         He explained how our earliest most pure roots had been 100% pacifist for a very very long time. He also explained how most of the destruction of lives and cities of Europe in World War I and II was mostly Christians upon Christians - many times Catholics upon Catholics! He spoke of how Christ taught us to love our neighbor as ourselves (all outside of oneself is one's neighbor) as well as even to love our enemies (!). It is not possible to love and kill the same person at the same time. If God can make His sun and rain fall on the good and bad alike (as in Scripture), so great and equal handed is His love for ALL, made in His own image and likeness, then who are we to be above God?

         Once converted, Fr. George Zabelka went on the be an outspoken advocate for Christian nonviolence and nuclear disarmament. He and my father marched across Ohio together in the early 80's.

         My father, peace activist Tom Siemer, a Navy veteran, has spent the past 40+ years working tirelessly against weapons of mass destruction and for Christan nonviolence. He had previously spent 23 years working as a defense contractor in the military industrial complex (money-making with war products). He nearly died of cirrhosis of the liver, and given only a short time to live, from his guilt-ridden alcoholism over his part of the war machine. He asked God to spare him and promised to dedicate the rest of his life working for peace.
         The dynamite inventor/maker had the same crisis when he was thought to have died, and his obituary praised how he brought the explosive and destructive power of weapons to such a higher degree. He spent the rest of his life working for peace as well. His name was Arthur Nobel. My father has worked very hard for the past 40+ years to make up for his past. In fact, I have filled two thick binders of the newspaper articles and stories of protests, arrests, marches, and even a documentary centered around him called "Gods of Metal."
         He was more recently arrested for throwing red paint on the above mentioned "Enola Gay" airplane at the National Air and Space Museum on Washington, D.C. to symbolize the massive loss of innocent human lives at Hiroshima and Nagasaki, Japan. Fr. McSorley, S.J. had taught him (even though he knew this): "He who chooses the lesser of two evils soon forgets he chose evil in the first place." There is always a third choice. Dad made a statement with the following: "...B-29 bombers were used to firebomb all other cities in Japan, killing over three million Japanese civilians. To praise the technology of the B-29 [and that of nuclear warheads] is like praising Hitler's poison of the gas chambers."

     

     
        My father saw the Enola Gay more recently in an exhibit at the Dulles Airport and the tour guide explained, "And this spot is where a protester broke a glass of red paint to symbolize the massive loss of innocent life that day." There is hope! While Dorothy Day did not herself believe in nor participate in civil disobence involving the harm or destruction of persons or possessions belonging to another ("Do unto others as you would have them do unto you," and that the end never justifies the means, the means and ends are equally holy), she came to respect people with the mentality who would say, destroy the Nazi files of those Jewish people that they are about to remove from their homes and send off to work (death) camps. All that was done to Jewish people in Catholic Germany was completely legal, even though inhumane, unethical, and immoral.

         Fr. Daniel Berrigan said in an interview for The Nation in 2008 the following: "Dorothy Day taught me more than all the theologians." Bravo to Cardinal Timothy Dolan for stepping up her cause for canonization in his April 19 article on the Archdiocese of New York website! He wants to press for interviews through the end of this year with those who knew her, attesting to her holiness of life.
        This was one month after I sent the medical records of my two surgeries with a cover letter to the priest collecting Dorothy Day information stationed at the New York office. We cannot find another survivor besides myself of anyone who has undergone this dangerous and risky procedure (of donating 59% of my liver to my nephew), requiring a second emergency surgery 3-5 days after, surviving. I relied on Dorothy Day and Peter Maurin's intercessory prayers. Because they helped me, hopefully this data will help the canonization process for both of them.
         Below is a picture Abby took of me last summer at the Mayo. She was my caregiver who was truly put through the ringer day and night! This was especially so when she had to keep a secret that I was to die, I believed, offering my life for Dorothy Day and Peter Maurin's canonization (coming through someone else) and for the Lamb Catholic Worker to begin in Columbus.

        Why is The Lamb Catholic Worker taking so long to begin? The intercessory prayers of Moses and Abraham have been added to that of Mary, St. Joseph, Dorothy Day, Peter Maurin and many others! Abraham had to wait approximately 15 more years, in old age, for Sara to conceive after being told he will be the father of many nations and peoples as numerous as the stars. Moses had it the worst though! He had to wait 40 years to get to the promised land, through harsh desert conditions involving many deaths, thirst, hunger, serpent bites, fatigue, and most of all, doubt of many around him (and probably of himself at times). I presume that was hardest of all with decades of time passing. I would have given up after 3 months in so dreadful of conditions with little provisions.
         What Fr. Schalk always says, to encourage me, is "Persevere!" What Fr. Denis Kigozi says is, "the Will of God is in the present, is only right in front of you. Looking back at regrets or forward with doubts and fears, this is not the Will of God. He puts right in your path and in your heart, what you are to do right here and right now."
        I will say that Benedictine crosses and Benedictine medals, blessed in the proper way with Benedictine prayers and holy water, are powerful! It is what our Vatican trained exorcists use against the evil one and his followers. Yes, these principalities truly do exist and the spiritual battle is going on constantly all around us. We do indeed need tools as channels of God's protection, to keep us from spiritual harm. St. Benedict tried to bring the level of holiness of higher levels of monasticism to the world and all the powers of hell tried to stop him. He was given these prayers, this medal and the Benedictine cross for special added protection. I recommend it!
         Many happenings give hope though! The fact that Dorothy Day is in the spotlight again, and we may have an answer after the end of this year about her moving forward to "Venerable" from "Servant of God" in the steps of canonization is marvelous. Also, the fact that it was a unanimous vote to open her cause for canonization of every U.S. Catholic bishop, archbishop, and cardinal in the United States a few years ago shows that the Spirit is moving strong.
          I gave my first talk at St. Mary Magdalene Church on Dorothy Day and the Catholic Worker Movement in March, with great encouragement. I have had priests over the years ask me to come and give a talk on her, but I decline because we are not doing it yet. I said yes only to see many faces at my alma mater.

        Moreover, people ask me about the progress all the time, wanting to volunteer once it gets going (a list of about 100 people!). The fact that our Catholic Times included this article about Fr. Daniel Berrigan gives much hope too! Many people do not know that Pope Emeritus Benedict talked of Dorothy Day two different times of day in his last day as pope, so badly did he want her name (and cause) remembered into the next papacy. This did not make it into many Catholic papers. The Holy Spirit is indeed moving, through the intercessory prayers of Mother Mary, St. Joseph, Dorothy Day and Peter Maurin.
         Another sign of hope: the Spirit has also been moving in the secular world! At one of the schools I have taught at, during the Winter Concert and to honor Martin Luther King Jr, the Columbus City School children (K-5 grades) belted out at the top of their lungs an anti-war song from the Isaiah quote above. Some day these songs will be sung at Catholic school functions too!
 Gonna layyy dowwwn my sword and shield,
Down by the riverside,
Down by the riverside,
Down by the riverside.
Gonna layyy dowwwn my sword and shield,
Down by the riverside,
Ain't gonna stuuuuudy warrrr no morrrre.
I ain't gonna study war no more.
I ain't gonna study war no more.
I ain't gonna stuuuudy warrrr noooo morre.
I ain't gonna study war no more.
I ain't gonna study war no more.
I ain't gonna stuuuudy warrrr noooo morre.
     A final note of hope for the world is the Holy Spirit moving strongly through my family, extended family, and especially through the Catholic Church in Columbus!  In 2017 it is the 50 anniversary of the Catholic Charismatic Renewal, and much of this outpouring and outgrowth of faith in younger people's lives stem from their "old time charismatic" parents and grandparents, myself included!  I am 43 years in the Charismatic Movement and it is far from dead!
    Pope Francis was fairly neutral on this movement until he went to a mass where tens of thousands broke into intense, spirit-filled "tongues" at the consecration.  He felt, "Whooaa, there really is something to this!" He has been very supportive.  Just like when the Apostles and Mary in the upper room called out to receive the Holy Spirit, and His swooshing rush came through, so He does again and again and again.  Dorothy Day had even encouraged to become a part of a charismatic group, as Msgr. Marv Mottet, overseeing this Catholic Worker.
     One last example of hope for the world: the holiness of life of many of my nieces and nephews and children (and their friends).  These are people who love to get to daily mass, like Dorothy Day and Peter Maurin, who get to Eucharistic Adoration at least once or twice a week, who pray many rosaries each week, have a fair amount of religious reading, pray a lot, and are very helpful to others. Most have gone several times in the summer to a rural poor Appalachian area in Kentucky/Portsmouth, Ohio with the Appalachia Project for a week.  They build room additions for needy families, fix plumbing, paint, even chop wood for the winter.  It is sort of a mini-Peace Corps right here.
     Nine have served for a 10-month stint with NET, the National Evangelization Team, and one additional one with Christ in the City in Denver, being one with the homeless people on the streets at night.  They are excited for the possibility of this Catholic Worker getting started, to help where they can.
     Six high schoolers have contacted the vocations office to become priests from the east side church where my son, Josh, and my niece Abby (my main caregiver at the Mayo) have been youth ministers for a while.  Heidi and Jotham (niece and nephew) have also been youth ministers there.  Abby recently got married (April 15). Her first date with her husband was last year, at a morning daily mass, followed by a rosary at Eucharistic Adoration.  Rumor has it that their first real kiss was on the altar a year later.  Abby and Matt were recently blessed by Pope Francis, their dream of dreams for a honeymoon.  The Holy Spirit is moving!